20 questions, tagged

This is a very convoluted tag. Bridget tagged me in a comment somewhere, but the questions she answered are different from the ones that Tara answered, which are the ones I happened to copy and paste so here they are. Everyone else please go tag yourselves if you're inclined, kind of masturbatory tagging here...


I AM...a very curious person, in both senses of the statement:  I'm always curious about things and I'm very odd.

I THINK...about patterns and how things fit together quite a lot. I think this is why I love puzzle games so much. There's a new Portal game coming sometime soon-ish, and I'm soooo excited!

I KNOW...a weird amount of trivia. Krissy and I love to watch Cash Cab and I know tons of the answers to these really obscure questions, which takes up the brain space that I would otherwise use to remember where I've left my car keys or my phone.

I HAVE...very vivid and memorable dreams at night. I wake up and type out a dream almost every night. Lately I've had a lot of dreams in which I'm asleep and dreaming, which is very confusing.

I WISH...all the time and have these superstitious things associated with wishing - tapping on something, wearing lucky clothing and jewelry, all kinds of craziness. Even I think it's crazy, but I still do it.

I HATE...waste, lack of care, inconsideration. I hate seeing resources or life being squandered, not even for enjoyment but just tossed aside.

I FEAR..humans when they become twisted and angry and destructive. I'm not afraid of other animals, although I'm sensible of their natural aggression and capabilities, but human animals can become mean spirited and frightened and hurtful in epic measure.

I MISS...so many people I've loved and still love who have kind of disappeared off my radar. I moved a lot for a big part of my life and I'm not very good about keeping up with people once I don't see them all the time, but I still love and miss them.

I HEAR..a soundtrack in my head almost all the time. Sometimes I actually play music that seems like the soundtrack for this moment or for what I want this moment to become. I used to go to sleep listening to the soundtrack to the first Harry Potter movie because I thought it would bring more magic into my dreams just by association. I don't know if it worked, my dreams are pretty crazy wild anyway.

I CRAVE...uni. Sea urchin sushi, mmmmm, there's nothing better. I also crave this salty Himalayan goji berry chocolate bar that Farland turned me onto after Dawn turned her onto it. It's amazing stuff.

I SEARCH FOR...everything, constantly. In the physical world, this is partly because I have the world's worst sense of direction. I have an inverted bump of direction and sometimes figure out where to go by thinking about what seems like the right direction to me and then going the opposite way. This usually works.

I WONDER..always and about everything. Curiosity and wonder are probably my signature strengths but also are the qualities that make me more than a little odd.

I REGRET...every time I ever said or did something unkind. I'm good with words and good with thinking on my feet and I can be very cutting and witty and a little evil. I always feel bad later, even if the other person "deserves it", but I'm the person who says the thing that other people later say "I wish I'd thought to say that". (Be careful what you wish for.)

I LOVE...being here in a body, having my wonderful family and friends, hearing music, dancing, playing, singing loud in my car or when I'm at home alone, drumming, painting, photography, yoga, sex, food, funny clothes, shoes that are cute AND comfortable (addicted to earth shoes!), playing games, reading, working with Little Bit...I love information too, I used to joke that I wanted to know everything, weigh nothing and live forever. It was only a sort-of kind of joke.

I BELIEVE IN  ..everything and nothing. If belief is on the table, then everything is equal, faeries, elves, elementals, the easter bunny, god, goddess, lucky underwear...all equally improbable, unprovable, unknowable. I'm much better at observation than belief.

I SING...really loudly in the car by myself. I can sing more or less on pitch but I don't have a great voice, I have the voice of someone who doesn't really sing. I can sing harmonies though.

I LOSE...things all the time. I'm not organized unless it's required for a job. I like a kind of organic mess of things that naturally find their places but I do sometmes get frustrated when I can't find a particular thing I want.

I ALWAYS...have another question. I can't imagine ever running out of them.

I AM SCARED...of other people sometimes, not much of anything else except sensible fears like not leaping off of cliffs unless I know the water's deep, not petting venomous snakes, that kind of thing.

I AM HAPPY...yes. I love love love being here, in this body, in this life, having these experiences, yes. Yes yes yes.