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What does your horizon look like?

Posted on Sep 4th, 2008 by tinkonthebrink : serendipitous researcher tinkonthebrink
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for September 04, 2008:

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This is the view from my backdoor. I like an obscure, complicated horizon. I felt a little unsettled by living on the Pacific ocean for so many years, and when I drove through Oklahoma and Texas I woke my driving mate up to make them look at the incredible flatness, like an ocean of land, with the road stretching out in a straight line for as far as you could see and nothing but flatness everywhere. I have dreams of driving on a road like that but over water, a road with no railings and no space between road and water, the road going on as far as I can see. It's a road you can't turn around on. And this was like that road only with earth in place of water and when I moved out there, to California, I knew I couldn't just turn around. I finally got back here, to the mountains, a few years ago, back to complicated horizons and winding roads and things that are hard to find. In some way people and places are defined by their geography, by their climate and the flora and fauna. I'm not the same person here that I was in California, living on the coast, with an easy climate and an ocean and everything laid out bare in front of you. When I first moved there I thought everything looked like a cheap trailer park, everything brown and bare and the architecture so plain and low and laid open. I had to be in the desert before I got it, before I saw how beautiful the spare earthiness was. But I never felt at home there, even though I still miss it. I feel at home with a complicated horizon, with plants that will grow over your car over a long weekend, with undergrowth in the forests and trails that are hard to find and roads that never go in a straight line and funky old buildings and hidden walkways and mysteries and shadows. I like it here.
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Do you think more about the past or the future?

Posted on Sep 5th, 2008 by tinkonthebrink : serendipitous researcher tinkonthebrink
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for September 05, 2008:

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No, not really.
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Have you ever found a letter meant for someone else?

Posted on Sep 8th, 2008 by tinkonthebrink : serendipitous researcher tinkonthebrink
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for September 08, 2008:

I do this weird thing. It's an almost superstitious ritual. I leave love notes or sometimes nice fortune cookie fortunes in the pockets of clothes at thrift stores. I don't know exactly why it's only thrift stores, except maybe because things there have a history and the notes could have come from anywhere really, except they didn't, they came from me. I believe in my heart of hearts that for someone it becomes their lucky day because of a tiny random bit of paper I tucked into a pocket. I like thinking that I have the power to do that, to make a regular day into someone's lucky day out of nothing but paper and ink. I like smuggling the little notes in unseen, stealing something into a store. It's good that I'm easily entertained I think.
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the joy of being nonbaseline

Posted on Sep 14th, 2008 by tinkonthebrink : serendipitous researcher tinkonthebrink
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for September 14, 2008:

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I've always thought that if you trip over a crack in the sidewalk, the most sensible thing to do is break into some kind of gymnastic tap dance routine that makes it all seem like part of a larger plan.  So as an adolescent with masses of wildly curly red hair down to my waist, 6 feet tall and bony-thin in that unflattering Olive Oyl way, I made a conscious decision to make being non-baseline a personal preference instead of an affliction. It stuck. Now I think of it as public service: someone has to notice the odd things and appreciate the unusual and I've taken that on as my personal quest. I have a kind of reverse-snobbishness where anything that everyone agrees is desirable automatically drops off my radar. I intensely dislike those mall stores where everyone buys things to look just like eveyone else. I like odd things, things that don't match, things that someone has discarded, clothes that are ratty at the edges, plates that the pottery coop gives away to the thrift shop because they didn't work out at all, the wall where the paint fell off and the old wallpaper is left looking out at me from fifty years ago. I like things that are the only one like them. And I like unusual experiences, books that only a handful of people actually read, places to visit where no one goes on vacation, foods that make people unsettled. I once lived with a man with well-managed debt (which seemed on the surface just like affluence), and he would look at people with less than slick lives and say "yes, it's a lifestyle choice" as a kind of mean-spirited joke, but you know, it is a lifestyle choice for me. I choose to look for the overlooked things and to appreciate what's been shaped by life and to have a life that isn't shiny and slick. I like being nonbaseline. I think it suits me.
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What does Autumn mean to you?

Posted on Sep 24th, 2008 by tinkonthebrink : serendipitous researcher tinkonthebrink
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for September 23, 2008:

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I love fall, I think it's my favorite season. Part of that is some ingrained memory of starting school, new beginnings from childhood, and part is the relief of cool nights and sleeping under fluffy comforters. I love the colors and smells and textures of fall. In art and objects, I also tend toward those colors and textures, the beginnings of decay, more wabi sabi than colorful and new. It's a season that suits me.
I'm always aware too that this is the time of turning inward. The plants take their energy back into the ground, they drop their seed pods and then their leaves and they get quiet for the coming winter. Time for regrouping. Between now and mid-December when the solstice comes, it's time for turning things down and putting them away and enjoying the last harvests of fall veggies and warm days and open windows moving toward that still period where everything pauses and freezes and waits. 
So I'm regrouping. I'm much more of a fall cleaning person than a spring cleaning person, maybe because I see the prospect of living indoors more coming on. I've been cleaning and puttering and sometimes fretting about how much I'd like to get done. 
This is a strange season this year. This morning I sat in line for 30 minutes to put gas in my car. I was lucky, Krissy was in line yesterday for an hour and a half and a coworker for 4 hours. There is no gas here and I have to drive for work. I turned the car off, listened to NPR and read Wicked, rolling forward a car length at a time and going back to my book. There hasn't been gas here for about a week. If I'm not working I don't drive unless absolutely necessary, and never have, but the strangeness still affects me and everyone I know. 
The 700 billion bailout is mindboggling, the whole issue with the fallout of deregulating debt insurers and the clear fact that the house of cards is tumbling and we can't prop the pieces up quickly enough or at all and we have nothing to use to prop them up anymore, the fact that that bailout equals about 2.3 billion dollars per US citizen, all of that is very strange. It all seems complicated and it's tempting to just look at something else because I can't fix it - can I? But that's exactly how we got here. 
So in this season of taking things in, I hope everyone will consider that we all do have the ultimate power to fire the fed and start over with the power where it belongs. If you live here in this messed up country, I'm begging you, just take it in, consider it, make every effort to take the power you do have back, and please vote. Try not to look away for too long. 
Just sometimes, because with all of this, the trees are still beautiful and the day is still glorious and the people we love are so cozy and snuggly under those fluffy blankets, and if there's no gas maybe more of us will walk and bike and really see the world around us these days. 
They're good, strange days.

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going postal

Posted on Sep 26th, 2008 by tinkonthebrink : serendipitous researcher tinkonthebrink
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for September 25, 2008:

I have a letter project going on. I was originally going to make letters to leave lying about to see if people would drop them in the mail, and then ran up against a minor obstacle: all of my art supplies, every single thing, are locked in our storage space and for two weeks we haven't been able to locate the key. I've searched every likely place, no key. And there's only the one key, so all those times I said to myself "I really should make a copy" are coming back to haunt me. So...to all those here who are on the letter list, this week I'm instead leaving postcards lying about, because really, I think postcards are even better. How could anyone resist reading them? But will they drop them in the mail? We'll see, I'm seeding them around town today with Little Bit. 
So now Krissy got a nice art box for all our supplies and it's my job to break into the storage space this weekend (I'm good with padlocks, or rather, bad with padlocks I guess) and replace the keyless lock with a new combination one, so unless I lose my mind I'll always be able to get in. And I can have my stuff here. Now all I need is a cat-proof portfolio for paper and I'm set. 
Letters sent through the mail or tucked into a pocket or slipped between the pages of a book are in a different world from email. In some ways, email is more demanding. All you can rely on for charm is the power of words. But physical, tangible missives - to touch someone's handwriting, to tuck a leaf or a feather in the envelope, to find the oddest postcard or send a photo as a postcard or draw a picture in the margins of the note, to choose the right kind of paper, to decide how to fold it, to embellish and play with it, that's an entirely different thing. I don't do it often enough anymore, but today I'm going to make a little move in that direction. 
A friend of mine belonged to a circle of artist friends who did a postcard mailing to each other once a month. Everyone produced postcards to mail to the dozen or so other people in the group and Jon would bring all the cards he got and show them to me. They were amazing and clever and I was very jealous, but they weren't taking on any new members. (The last ones Jon sent out before he moved and I didn't get to see them anymore were made by taking molded paper like those egg cartons and flattening it in a gigantic press - he did metal work, so he had cool tools - and printing them with artwork.) That just isn't the same over email, now is it?
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